Then i wash my face and put lotion on. Brush my hair, and teeths and use mouthwash. Amd drink another cup of coffee and water.
I usually go churh breakfeast wendsdays and daily in libary.. I just got bad season with mind and i was drinking much and spend my little money on booze and just greasy foods. So it is really time to me lose weight. Now 110kg before 80kg. Yes i am 171cm long so 75 is at least the goal.
I work after coffee to probly 6 to 8 hours. I see my notes and invent more money in my future like maaking a computer game now, and posting online to get ads someday, and it helps modeling, i get model asks by brands to tell fans about they shop. If they use my sale code i get money, called commissions.
.. Biggest worries
I dont have an Electricity thats why i am in libary.. Loading phone.
I cant pay water either. But water is still warm.
I eat usually cheese and pizzas and chocolate AND most important 3 bottles of wine
I have belive that i had crappy childhood since child.. Like been drugged cause i saw only hallusinations (i have skitsofrenia)
In life together seoson i will raise and battle my way frim lies in mind to this reality.. First was to get is true that i have skitsofrenia and belive the past wasnt like that i belived. I have meds for that too and to psykosis... Writing daily helps to get truth of own mind and life.
Now i am on feelings. Emotinaly it was exausting amd painful to body.. I slept and woke up 3 am to work. Lighted candles to see cause no Electricity. In school i didnt know i was there.. Learning as adult is awful feeling being stupid even i can guess what things mean or logic of world to games
Even i ever heard them before. I was so in my world i didnt hear words or peopme around me
I didnt move me so nobody would get hurt if i am Sophia De luca.. The name i gave the woman in living life... It was my mind since labour.. To colors i saw looked like people. Familiar faces... More than my family faces to me.
Because i never asked or felt my body am i adult or kid.. i thought it could be true, iam contract killer from italy.
No lies. It was happy life to be contract killer not some girl nowbody cared to take hospital or asked what is wrong. Still when i thought i could be Viivi age 11 or 14 or what ever i thought i was free the flee or go to school cause i saw for awhile in my own eye vision.. Finally some proves i am Viivi Reini. I was tooked to be some child hooker to other... They fucked when i was there.. Or made me beluve there was used condom.. All this time i belived i was taken forcly.. Because i die or the others if i dont kill the rapers and the kidnapper - my ex🫨
In 2011.
