9/11 trauma is the childhood reason

I remember i saw it alone 8 years old.

People jumping.. It broke my heart.. It was too much. I just was scared i die too.. And i was lone. I got memory loss and it continued years... Indidnt see even well i gave up easy everything in school..

But gym helps now and ibhope i learn to talk people and lose child fat.. 

And skitsofrenia is over. Nobody kidnapped me.. It was a party but with strangers.

I hope everything is going to me solved and cured with me. 

Tomorrow mom comes clean my home with me.

Writing helped years to learn to care again about myself.